How my story begins: Before my diagnosis, I was a full-time working mother of 4 girls, with a busy lifestyle, amazing sex life, and a great social life.
In September 2014, I began to have irregular bleeding and in October, I was rushed to the emergency room after having a massive bleed and blood clots. After months of visits to my general practitioner and different drugs to stop the bleeding, a doctor finally said those words, "I think you need to see a gynecologist and have a biopsy and a LEEP procedure." And so my journey began.
How I felt after diagnosis: After being diagnosed, my world fell apart, my partner became my caregiver, my girls were terrified, and my family was in shock. I was made redundant from work , I became unrecognizable, my friends dwindled down, and I saw nobody other than my partner or my kids.
Telling my family and friends: Telling my family was hard. My children didn't know how to react - each one of them acted differently. My 24 year old was a worrier and was constantly worried; my 19 year old made jokes and said you will be ok, you are a machine; my 14 year old went quiet and stayed in her room a lot and never talked; and my youngest was only 10 and didn't really understand. My other family members were there at the end of the phone but I didn't feel that support much. Of my friends, no one visited and no one called.
My treatment: My treatment started in May 2015 - radiotherapy every day until end of June, chemo every Monday during this period, and three lots of brachytherapy once radiotherapy ended.
How I felt after treatment: After treatment, I felt alone and scared. I didn't know what to do with myself and became depressed and very anxious and started having panic attacks.
What was most difficult for me: Having no control of my life or my body
What I did to help myself: Just let things happen and tried not to worry
My life after cancer: It has changed who I am - I still feel scared, tearful, alone, unsociable, no sex drive, no confidence. I hate being alone or in crowds and I have gone into early menopause.
Where I am today: I'm still in this horrible place, suffering with long term side effects.
What I want other women to know: Please go with your gut instinct. Talk, get help, listen to your body.
How I will try to help others: I have tried to spread the word on social media about the importance of cervical cancer screening, etc.
Any additional information you'd like to share: Cancer has almost killed me as a person, and I'm trying to fight back.