Mashell

Location: Mississippi

Cancerversary: July 2018

Age at diagnosis: 32

Diagnosis: Cervical cancer (unspecified)

Stage of cancer: II

How my story begins: I have so many parts to this one story that I feel is leading up to this story because I've had an irregular menstrual since I was about 13, which was right after I was molested and I was put on the depo shot. I've had issues since.

In 2004 I stopped going to get the depo shot because I was having so many problems and in 2005 I had my first child. Nine months into my second pregnancy, one week before his due date, he was pronounced dead. I was bleeding for about 6 months after I had him.

In 2007, I moved to seek a different OBGYN. I found one that I trusted and in 2008 I conceived. At nine weeks we had a miscarriage. My menstrual was off and 2009 we conceived and 2010 we had our son. In the same year I was offered or talked to about having a tuble ligation done and I went through with it and started to have a lot of issues. I'm not sure if it was from the tubal or hormone inbalance or what but I was having a lot of problems still so I sought another OBGYN in 2013.

I started to see a little progress in my female health but within 2 years I started to decline; I was bleeding way too much. In 2015 I was diagnosed with endometriosis and in 2016 I had the IUD placed to help with bleeding. After about a year and a half with the IUD I started to have extreme pain and it got to the point to where I had to have the IUD removed and that's when the cancer was suspected, and a sample was sent to labs and in March of 2018 I was diagnosed.

Life before my diagnosis: Life before cancer was still a bit difficult due to the fact that I had endometriosis, stillbirth miscarriage; having a lot of different female problems before I finally was diagnosed with this disease.

How I felt after diagnosis: Honestly after the diagnosis I was just numb. I called my mom, who left work and came to where I lived, which was not just right next door to her, and I just went home. I laid down and was just left to my own devices, with me and my thoughts. I was checked on of course, and I was patiently waited on until I was ready to talk about it.

Telling my family and friends: As far as telling my family and friends that was hard too. Because of the immediate sympathy and I've never been one to enjoy other people giving me the sad eyes or the sympathy eyes; it just somehow hurt my feelings I'm not sure how that works but it was tough to tell them but I got through it.

My treatment: My chemotherapy was rough, but manageable. My radiation therapy was terrible, heartbreaking, painful, exhausting, discouraging all things bad.

How I felt after treatment: I felt helpless. I felt misplaced, as if I had been given the wrong body.

What was most difficult for me: The most difficult for me was the internal radiation.

What I did to help myself: Looking into the faces of my children.

My life after cancer: Life is still rough I have so many things still going on due to the aggressiveness of the radiation I am due to have a bladder removal soon and there's so many different things that are going on with my stomach lining and intestines so it's a lot still in the works.

Where I am today: Life is still rough as I have so many things still going on due to the aggressiveness of the radiation. I am due to have a bladder removal soon and there's so many different things that are going on with my stomach lining and intestines so it's a lot still in the works.

What I want other women to know: It's hard but it's no match for you.

How I will try to help others: I can only voice what I've been through and try to understand and correlate what others have been through my helping is merely a conversation; if there's anything hands-on I would definitely do my best to seek to help or give the help needed but mostly just supporting and being there.

Any additional information you'd like to share: There's strength in numbers.